I don’t view myself as unlucky for being diagnosed with you at age 31. I view myself as an extremely fortunate person to have found you early, in an organ that I can live without. That being said, in the unlikely event that in the end you decide to metastasize and think you’ve won the battle, you haven’t.
I am not afraid, I am thankful. Thankful for the love that has surrounded me through this journey, and for the things I’ve been able to experience while being here on this fabulous and beautiful planet. God has blessed me with a wonderful life full of love, passion, and adventure. When I look back on my 31 years – my heart is full. I have two beautiful daughters and the best husband a girl could ever ask for. I have two sisters who are my closest friends and are two of my favorite people in the world. I have the most selfless and caring mother who always wants to lend a hand. Cancer, she already beat you this year.
I am extremely lucky to have been able to experience the things I have, to have the extended family I have, and to have the close friends that I have.
Yes, I do wish with all my heart to see my daughters grow up. I wish to spend more time with my husband. I wish to do more charity work. I wish to see more of the world- and if I am lucky enough to be free of you in a short while, I know exactly where my priorities sit.
I know that I was not promised any amount of time on this earth. I will take no day for granted, waste no time with a loved one arguing, and will expend no energy on negative thoughts, because in the end I have no idea when my time is up- and it could be soon.
I’ve always been a firm believer of living life to the fullest- and I feel as if I have done just that. Dear cancer, I’m sorry to say, that no matter what happens- YOU LOSE. I’ve already lived.